Friday, July 21, 2006

Pet Peeve "TIME"

I'm a mother of two boys. One is nearly 3, but you'll see me refer to him as already being 3. The other is just 4 months old. I have a large house, that gets dirty and dusty and gross. FAST! Just think, meals in the kitchen, dirty dishes, dirty diapers, spit up EVERYWHERE, TOYS, TOYS, TOYS! It's hard to keep up with.Then there is the yard, weeds to pull, lawn to be mowed. Grocery shopping, meal planning, budgeting.We live far away from the family, so calls have to be made. They usually last an 30 minutes or more. After all you don't want to hang up right away, even if the laundry pile threatens to squash your newborn.A husband to talk to, to listen to, to show how much I love.And somewhere in there, is me. My needs, my wants. And honestly I'm a selfish person who has many needs and wants.I feel like I do everything halfway. This last week I started a lot of things. I did half a workout, it was fun, I wish I could have finished.I started to paint a train on M's wall. It has wheels, and that's as far as I've gotten. I need to have time to be creative to make it look nice. But when will that be.I've started trying to cook from Rachael Ray's cookbook. I have done two meals, but I'm already tired of that. It takes a while to read and prepare and do things I"m not accustomed to.The laundry is in piles on the bed. Half of E's 0-3 month clothes are in a box to be stored, or sold, or something.... But the other half are in his crib and on the floor.E gets my attention for 5 minutes here, 5 there, M is fit in somewhere between there.NOTHING gets done completely. It's like I"m a human tug rope.And yet, I sit and listen to a friend. A friend who has no children. Doesn't work in the summer time and as far as I'm concerned has all the time in the world. And yet all she does is complain about how much she has to to, and how little time she has to do it in. I don't get it, no time? Really? It makes me want to scream when she yawns and say's she's just so groggy because she OVERSLEPT! I like to compare it to complaining about the 5 course meal she just had to someone who is starving. And the kicker is that the only thing she talks about more than being exhausted is about how much she wants kids. What a rude awakening that will be. So, I'm upset about people who have plenty of time complaing that they don't have enough. I don't even have time to pee by myself without singng a song or fixing a toy for my 3 year old. I think if people learned to manage their time more instead of just complaining about it then life wouldn't be so hard.So now I'm going to do something useful so later today I'm not complaining that I didn't have time to do something.

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